"Autumn, the year's last, loveliest smile" 

-William Cullen Bryant-

"Autumn carries more gold in its pocket than all other seasons"

-Jim Bishop-

"The heat of Autumn is different from the heat of summer. One ripens apple, the other turns them into cider"

-Jane Hirshfield-

I was thinking for so long on how to start this article, so much in my heart and yet somehow I don't want to say too much either. A whole new chapter in my life just started and can't really get a move from my past just yet. A lot have changed, but don't get me wrong, I love changes. Just the get up from a daily boring routines into all new excitements and fun. Different people, different vibes and environment. That's pretty exciting right? Although, it's only a matter of time that all these new stuff will become "a daily boring routines" all over again, gotta accept the fact that all of this is a cycle that you just can't ignore. There comes a point in my life where I questioned every single thing that's happening right now without realizing that this is the point which I have always hoped I want to be in. My everyday here is like a brand new day, I swear. I am so grateful for everything that comes into my life either ones that I expected or not I expected. 

The other day, I was just driving to South Lake Tahoe to visit some friends until we passed by this beautiful Sugar Pine Forest on my way there. So, my friend and I decided to stop for a bit and enjoy the beauty of it. Although, we were a little scared that we are not allowed to be there because this place doesn't seem to be like a state park that's open for public. Anyways, we parked somewhere between the trees, so we get to enjoy the breeze for a while and took some pictures. It was a beautiful bright autumn day with air like dreams and a sky so blue that you can drown in it. And yes, the whole reason why I captioned my picture on Instagram "breathing dreams like air". Fun fact, little did you know, all my captions do actually mean something, I relate my feelings and my everyday moments to it. 

I really loved the outfit that I wore that day, it was a bit cold so the boots really warmed me up. Not to mention my new rattan bag that is local made from Indonesia which I got when I was in Bali visiting a friend just before I left for the United States. I swear, I couldn't decide which color to get when I was at the shop. Here goes the story, I've been wanting this kind of bag since I was in Switzerland and I had some time to look around for this kind of bag in Manor -which is a Swiss department store- but then of course the price was crazy expensive and I was even planning to go to Bali anyways when I go back to Indonesia. So, I decided to hold myself a bit to not buy any in Switzerland. Time goes by, finally can get a hold of myself until I arrived in Bali. The first thing I did when I arrived in Bali is straight up told my friend, Irene, that I want to buy one of these kind of bags. She was telling me that one of her neighbors is selling this kind of stuff, so just right before I flew back to Jakarta, we stopped at her neighbor's shop, and I spent so much time on deciding which color to get that I bore her and the seller, lol. Ren, if you're reading this, I'm so sorry, you know how indecisive I am.

Anyways, it feels good to go back to this comforting and gratifying page of me. My blog has always been my bubble of escapism to be honest which I'm able to share all my insecurities and my anxiety (on my last post). To this day, I can say it is so much easier for me to write than to speak. I have the hardest time opening up to someone new, somehow, writing to myself and just hitting the publish button doesn't feel like that much hard. I've always wanted my blog to be a platform that's more meaningful than just posting pictures of my outfits, my sketches, or my travel experience. I want this as a platform that I can actually express my creativity and content about me with more deeper and meaningful texts and perspectives, I just can't really find out how to balance all of it and how people going to accept that. 

Not that this is important but I'm writing this post at my workplace's lounge while waiting my shift to start and out of nowhere some stranger just put Russ - Psycho on loudly. What a motivation!