These last 2 weeks been a very chaotic weeks for my college life. I got to deal with this, this, and this. One issue was over, another one came out. So, you can imagine. 

BTW, QUICK ANNOUNCEMENT!

In my university, there is an internship program for the student in 3rd semester and 6th semester. For those who are in 3rd semester are going to have an internship in local company and while the student who are in 6th semester are going to have an internship in Germany or Switzerland but the choice of having an internship in Switzerland is only for the Hotel and Tourism Management (HTM) students. 

And the point is, I'm currently in 2nd semester, but this semester is going to an end which means 3rd semester is coming, and that means I am going to have an internship in only 1 month to go!

The searching for company which I'm going to have an internship with was a bit hard and tiring for me. Everyone of us (HTM) students required to choose 2 hotels (any hotels as long as it is located in Indonesia). So,the hotels that I chose was Ayana Resort and Spa Bali and the other one is Hard Rock Kuta Bali. 

Before the interview was conducted, I studied a lot about those 2 hotels, and I learn about how to answer questions appropriately in job interview and such things. Until the first job interview for Ayana was held, I was so nervous and I did the direct interview which the HR of Ayana came to my university to conduct the interview. The interview was conducted with English language too which made me more nervous even though in my university English is our daily language in class, but still. 

And then the interview was over, I waited for about 3 weeks to hear the news am I being accepted or not but after that Ayana told us that they have internal problem and that made Ayana can't accept any internship student. I was very disappointed and sad, because I really want to have my internship in Ayana, Bali, but yeah what so ever, everything's gonna be okay. 

And then, I did my interview for Hard Rock Kuta Bali, but before that I was doing research by asking my seniors who had their internship in Hard Rock too. Most of them said that, the interviewer will ask us to sing, but they only want to see our confidence not to see that we're good in singing or not. Because of that, I searched for a song that really described me as a person. Honestly, I can't sing, so that makes me really nervous, but when I did the interview, they were not asking me to sing. I truly enjoyed a lot being interviewed by Hard Rock, because they make it fun and relax, it was like having conversation with a friend, also Hard Rock is a hotel that so easy-going, and it is allowed for the employee to wear sneakers and shorts not like  the other hotel that requires their employee to always well-grooming to use heels and others. After experienced it, I really kinda think to myself that I was right for choosing Hard Rock. Briefly, 2 weeks for waiting to hear the news, finally arrived and I was told that I'm being accepted!!!!! I'm beyond happy.

Now is May 29th, 2016. In June 28th, 2016, my internship will begin. So that means in less than 1 month I will go to Bali and stay in Bali for 6 months. I'm super excited but nervous and afraid at the same time. I'm excited because it is Bali, you know Bali, it's like the most fantastic island in Indonesia, and there are so many amazing places that I could explore. On the other side, I was afraid that anything could go wrong while I'm doing my internship, and working at the hotel means you have to deal with any kind of people...... and that makes me nervous. Well, that doesn't matter, it's good to experience something right.

Enough about internship, now, my private life. Honestly, I've been mentally and physically tired, to deal with my emotion,it is kinda make me sick sometimes, I've been through a lot lately, and that's really exhausting. 3 weeks ago, I just broke up, but I don't think that's 3 weeks ago, bcs I kinda can't remember. Yeah, so I broke up with him because of something that doesn't make me feel connected with him anymore, and that's because something of his done (truthfully). Our communication is also blacked out, so I end up our relationship. I end it up because I want him to realize that it is not all about him you know, you gotta think someone else's feelings, not just you. I end it up not because I want to be with somebody else, I want him to realize that all is matter so don't be selfish as a jerk. And then, the next thing I know that he has a new girlfriend which is I know who the person is. I know her because he's been hanging out with that girl a lot, yes like a lot. And every damn time that I told him I get a bit jealous of her, he's like always taking it easy and said that I don't have to get jealous because she was only his bestfriend. Well, that tells us a lot right? I honestly didn't expect that at all, but it all happened and that makes me very disrespect to him. I was very disappointed. But it didn't matter anymore. My life still goes on anyway, with or without him. Sad? must be. But it's not good to be sad continuously. 

So, right after that, I was only enjoying life and try to be happy about it. So if you read this, from the bottom of my heart I am truly sorry for you that I give no respect to you anymore and I would like to congratulate you and hope that she brings up the best of you and that can make you always happy. 

Enough about drama. 

Just fuck about everything and enjoy the life as we live!