Gloomy Day
Hi everyone,
how’s your life been going? I hope fine as always. First of all, welcome 2k16,
welcome to my new titled blog and so as a new year starter I’d like to say
sorry for not updating in such a long long time, I just had really busy time
with this new college life, and I’m still getting on in it, so wish me luck to survive
in college life. Hell yeah.
These past 3 months I’ve been thinking, a
lot actually, about how is my life been going. I’m not saying my life’s not
fine, well I had a couple of rough time and good time also, and most of ‘em
were the good one and it was fine, but fine is not enough I think. And I think
just fine is going nowhere. To be honest, I kinda lost with my life. No goals,
no resolutions, and the most important thing is no dreams. Yes, I honestly
don’t know yet what are my dreams, well I had severals but I don’t think that
is my passion. You know? I don’t think I wanna live those dreams because I
can’t see my life in the future about living those dreams.
So here I am, in this gloomy morning,
out in my home balcony, sipping my coffee and eating my scrambled egg, thinking
what are my dreams, what exactly I really want to do and wanna be in the
future, what is the meaning of life? What is the meaning of my life to be exact,
and seeking ideas for this new blog title until I came up with this blog title.
Behave On Fashion. It isn’t so bad, isn’t it? Choosing the title that fits
perfectly with all ideas I want it to be drove me crazy and I don’t know that
it would be that frustrating. I’ve been
thinking for the blog title for days and hours, cause you know, you will
absolutely lose idea when you are expecting more ideas, and I think this one is
the one that the closest with what’s in my mind and what I’m going to do more and
going to share more in this blog. And I really like to keep my blog stay
updated and I changed the template too. So, what do you think guys? Don’t
worry, I can handle critics pretty well, but I can handle compliments so much
more than pretty well (if you know what I mean).
Everyone thinks that I have the perfect
life, but I don’t know, I don’t think my life’s perfect, not saying that I’m
not grateful. I truly grateful for everything I had, I lived, and everything
that happened to my life. I’m so grateful, I just don’t know what those
blessings will lead me, I literally don’t know what I wanna be in the future.
The only thing I know, the one and only I wanna be is success. More than my
mom’s and dad’s had reached. I know this first post in 2k16 is kinda emotional
and cheesy, but it’s true, it is the truth even though I already have the
amazing things in life such as my boyfriend, my family and everything else. I
don’t think hiding and keeping this little lost problem only to myself will
solve it, so I directly saying to you the problem that had spinning in my head
of these past 3 months. I honestly don’t think with this kinda direct post will
solve it too, but what I’m just saying that at least I am telling this problem into
something or someone and not to keep it only to myself. Well, I was thinking to
keep it to myself, and finally I did not. And choosing to tell this to you
guys, I’m hoping that it will leads me into “something”. I don’t know what
brings me in the future, that “something” won’t come if I just sat down and do
nothing right? And I don’t know what that “something” is, so let’s just have
faith that “something” will also leads me into discovering what is the meaning
of my life.
Good day,
everyone xx.
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